I (16F) am ugly.

I don't really have a proper rant planned out, but I wanted to vent.

I have a nice enough body. I go to the gym and I'm currently working on building muscle. I take good care of myself.

The problem, though, isn't my body. It's not my skin and it's not my hair. It's my face

I have a very large and very round nose and face. My forehead is massive and sticks out. My eyes are too small and I have basically no eyelashes. I hate how I look. I hate how I can't take photos of myself without editing them. I hate how my problem can't be fixed by losing weight or changing my skincare routine. No product will make me look like the pretty girls I know.

Sometimes, I consider plastic surgery. I'm too ashamed to admit it to anyone else (not including my therapist), but I really do. I feel like I should bring it back up with my therapist because of how bad the thoughts are getting.

I'd do so many things if it meant I could have a small forehead, a small, pointy nose, and a v-shaped jawline. When I lie down to go to sleep, I imagine what I'd look like with big eyes and long eyelashes. It makes me feel both better and worse.

I'm on a trip rn, so I'll have to trim my bangs when I get back home. They've started to swoop to the side, so they aren't really covering my forehead anymore. It's making me hate my face even more.

I feel like it's never going to get better. I'm so upset and so lost. I hate being ugly.