Concerning dream I had about not being able to escape

I'm just here to write this down as it's on my mind.
I had a dream a while back (about 2 weeks) that I was at my workplace, and I was spectating my parents (could see them and hear them but not interact, like a ghost) talking to the people I look up to and consider mentors and friends. They were talking about me and one that I look up to alot said about how awful I am to be around and how I'm weird and creepy, he then said he wishes I wasn't here. Everyone including my parents agreed. I felt destroyed. Flash forward to the next night and I had a dream where a a bunch of my coworkers from a different job who I like and try to hang out with were holding some kind of event. There were planes as small as bumper cars, and they were flying around the air above my yard. I wished so much to be up there, but I was sitting on the ground watching. They all landed and walked by me to get out of my yard. They mocked me as they passed or just ignored me entirely. One of them was pointing out how I would never be a problem or bug them because I was too waeak to ever do anything. I was thinking of just leaving them all and just quitting, when then the person who at the time I wanted so much to be my friend and I admired so much walked up to me and said straight to my face: "don't kid yourself, you're not gonna leave; you like me too much", smiled and left. And I was sitting there, I felt happy for a moment that I was acknoledged, but then so empty and alone. I feel crushed ever since then, about 2 weeks. I feel so empty, I feel so alone. I'm alone.