I’m crashing. Hard.

My ex and I finally called it quits about a month ago after 2 years total and 7 months of that being basically roommates. Her house, I moved out. I have basically zero in-person human interaction. I have pretty severe agoraphobia and work from home. I can’t afford a therapist, I’m not covered for mental health under my insurance. I’m so fucking lonely. I live thousands of miles away from my family, we’re not close. I have friends, but none of them live near me. I don’t have internet set up at my house due to an error from the company, so I can’t play any games with them like I usually do when I get sad. I literally just sit in my room for 10-12 hours, go work out at the gym for an hour and then come right back and go to bed.

My life is pathetic. I am NOT SUICIDAL- but often times I feel like nobody would even notice if I was gone. I went an entire day yesterday with NOBODY reaching out to me. I have a feeling tomorrow will be the same.