[TW] I’m feeling really bad

I’m feeling worthless and hopeless. I have an appointment with my psychiatrist today but I called off work and am really scared and struggling. I have been diagnosed with bipolar 2 disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, severe depression, and cptsd for 20 years now, but this is new. Did I just develop it?

I hate the ideas for getting rid of the symptoms of pmdd. I hate the thought of yoga, meditation, and exercise. I can’t even bring myself to entertain the ideas of those things. All I can do is sleep. I don’t like myself very much.