One eye and broken dreams

My name is Vincent. I was born with a condition called lazy eye basically a part of my brain shut off my right eye I never thought too much of it until I fell in love with the sport MMA seeing all my favorite fighters clash, bleed cry for wins ever since I was a little boy I always loved it and when I wanted to go into it I was told the harsh reality that it would never come true. I would love to see how far I can go I don’t care for any belts or the UFC. I just care how far I can go, but I can never do that. i’ve always talked about maybe becoming an MMA coach I could do that but just that feeling of going into that octagon and looking down your opponent and see what man goes down first I can never feel that sometimes I feel like I’m cursed. I just wanna see how far I can run. I don’t really know why I’m on here. I always get into this feeling when I watch some kind of movie about a champion for somebody who has nothing in wins, but for me, I have nothing and I lose try not to be sad about it, but it’s hard if I could fight, I would say I would rather die in this cage then die 80 years later and not be remembered if anybody else feels like that or has a similar case let me know✌️