i wish you met me on a better day

I think about the day you realized I wasn’t the bright, carefree girl you first met — and how that must’ve disappointed you.
At first, I laughed easily and glowed without trying. I was light.
But somewhere along the way, the darkness caught up with me again. The version of me you saw wasn't a lie… it just wasn’t the whole story.

I’m sorry you had to meet the part of me that’s still learning how to cope — the tired, quiet, hurting version. I know she was hard to love.
But she was still me. And she still loved you with all her heart.

Now, I go to therapy. I take my meds. I’m trying.
I wish I didn’t have to heal without you.