Can't make friends with fellow ftms

I realized I'm abysmal at befriending poons? I don't know why. I get very anxious around them because their social patterns are different from mine and they take jokes a lot more seriously. I also noticed that the people I get along with most are mtfs I tend to really get along with and relate to them irl and online... its different than with cis men and I end up having mild crushes on mtfs often because they are more emotionally intelligent and tend to be soft in terms of their personalities... however theyre hardly ever normies so theyre always based

I wish they weren't all transbians though