Just looking for some hope

For the last 14 months I have done everything in my powder to make sure my son won’t have to sleep in my car and starting tomorrow, he’ll probably have to. Long story short, I left with my son from a very volatile situation with my family. His father is a deadbeat who only hits me up once every 18 months to argue about how bad of a girlfriend I was almost a decade ago. I’ve taken up sex work for the days Im off and he’s in school, Im back on school, my job keeps cutting my hours and finding a new one has been almost impossible. I’m 100 percent sure that my friends are over me begging for help, I have no one we can stay with. Like I’ve been sobbing for the last two nights spending the whole time up looking for ways to avoid this. The shelters in my area are full before I get off work, like Im lost and it hurts so bad knowing I have failed him so early in his life. The fact that I know he’ll remember these days as me being stressed out and maybe mean? IDK. Just words of encouragement would be so amazing. Thank you guys for reading