i feel numb.............

just wanted to rant bohot dino se and couldnt share with anyone else kyuki koi aur samjhega hi nhi but atleast my fellow medstudents will

constant feeling of brain rot

1. i know few days are left for this godforsaken exam

2. i know how to revise what to revise .....bhai kisi aur ko dena ho gyan to humare pass duniya bhar ki advise or idea hote but jab khud pe apply krne ki baat aati h aesa demotivated feel hota h kuch karne ka man hi nhi karta h....everyday i wakeup plan to do 100 qs revise topics and then end up staring for hours at my notes as if i wasnt the one who annotated them or had gonethrough them a few days ago

3. recent few events since past months against doctors i just feel stuck in a rat-race ajeeb si bechaini h it feels like you are stuck and the world is moving around you..also kya sense h itna padhke koi gov seat ya ache hospital se clinical krne ka...............har jagah saturation h........patient aur attendants ka khula haath chalta h jab bhi man kiya pit do doctors ko koi izzat hi nhi h yaar........apni puri youth ko sacrifice krke kis society ke liye padh rhe h ???

4. kitna bhi books se padh lo the fomo of not giving enough gts or securing a good score eats you from inside .

5. at this point useless questions like ye falana machar kitne angle pe beth ta h and kitni dur tak ud sakta h can be a imp pyq fr had hai

6. non-clinical sector me ab msc and phd ke professors ban sakte h so imagine the scope of competition that'll sky rocket for clinical fields

scarcity h specialists ki but pg ke liye seats increase nhi krenge kyuki salary bhi deni padegi na..............we are anxious and mentally drained souls rote learning 70 percent of data to then serve in a community in which you can be attacked any-moment or die d/t toxicity earning a minimum pay.......(speaking for first gen doctors)

aur bhai kisi ko koi farak nhi pahdta aadhe log from non med streams to understand bhi nhi krte ki actually it is tough to study this much....bas muh uthake bol denge to ug me kya kiya arey bkl tum krke dekho na 6 subs padhoge aur unko revise kroge nani yaad aajeyi and then theyll end up shitposting about high fee or expect you to serve them as kings