This dying thing is just adding to my stress

So I am officially circling the drain. The likelihood of me being alive this time next year is close to nonexistent. Heart/lung problems. Not responding to treatment. Every test is worse than the one before. I'm trying to wrap things up, get everything in order but holy shit! Life just won't let up.

This is kind of bullshit. I've been struggling for years - financial shortages, car problems, housing problems, butthead pseudo-friends. I still have all of those problems AND I'm having to deal with my imminent death and all that goes with it.

Terminal and life limiting diagnosis should come with a waiver. This is just too much.