Should i tryout?

Ok so i 14F play volleyball, i’ve been playing since 7th grade but not on my own accord. my parents heavily suggested it to me because my brothers happen to be very successful football players and even got offers to college so they wanted me to be good at sports too

i felt pressured to do good all this time and i am average ngl. if i make a team its by the skin of my teeth… and im usually the worst on my team. freshman year i didn’t make the team and i felt like such a disappointment every time someone asked if i made the team i said no and it shattered my heart . i even get anxiety and nausea every night just think about how i sucked at those tryouts and how i didn’t make the team.

part of me does not want to tryout again because i know if i don’t make the team AGAIN its going to ruin me and im gonna feel so embarrassed and like such a disappointment, and in my brain if i don’t tryout at all the most ill get is FOMO and not the anxiety. but i also know i have improved but i dont know if i’ve improved enough to make the team… also because a lot of spots are reserved for certain girls bc of favoritism :(

i just want some opinions on the matter or some advice because i genuinely at a crossroad and i don’t know what to do