hm ang gastos for consultation and assessments?

hi, I live in Pampanga and I wanna know kung hanggang magkano ang possible na gagastusin if mag pa-assess ako? I've been wanting to do it years ago pa but kapag okay na ako iisipin ko hindi ko naman na need. then it'll all repeat again. nakakapagod. I don't think I can manage this pa lalo na nagti-take ng toll yung mga taong malapit sa akin. I kept on promising na I'll do better, and yes I'm doing my best kaso nasasaktan ako pag nakikita ko silang nasasaktan because of my actions.

I'm still a student and I plan on telling my parents about this (they don't live with me). I tried telling my mom before but she brushed me off, saying "hindi ka kasi natutulog/hindi ka kumakain nang maayos," and I felt dismissed considering na I have a brother who's clinically diagnosed, kaya nag spiral down lang ako that time. but now I wanna try again because I really want to live my life. I don't wanna spend my life crying, pushing other people away, bursting out because of small things then feel guilty about it, then repeat.

thank you in advance sa mga sasagot :))