Oh my fucking god

Hi. I asked about the book series on this subreddit a couple days ago, I think 5? I decided to give it a go because you all quelled my one worry and I figured it was worth a shot.

And oh my god.

I finished all the books (thank you, audiobooks) and spent about 2 hours crying about it. I'm still kind of all over the place about it and can't even begin to organize my thoughts properly. That being said, I have two main points;

1, this is everything I've ever wanted from a robot-centric story. Everything from the world-building, past interactions between the bots, to the smallest details in word choice and descriptions is amazing. It's beautiful. SecUnit's narration is so well crafted. Its view of the world felt convincing and interesting, it didn't feel awkward or annoying or tiring.

2, I wasn't expecting it to hit me emotionally, especially not as hard as it did. I love SecUnit. I found it relatable in a way that was both funny and kind of painful. The eye contact; the sense of confusion between what you are, by all accounts, MEANT to be, versus the knowledge that it doesn't suit you and you couldn't go back to it even if you tried; the emotions, the need and want to be accepted without having to fundamentally change yourself, to have agency without sacrificing critical parts of yourself, and the difficulty, even reluctance of connecting with other people that you don't want to admit isn't all that bad- it hit me like a train.

I wish I hadn't rushed through it. I wish I could forget it and experience it all again, but simultaneously, I know that if I could have that, I wouldn't be able to stop myself and would probably go through it even faster. I haven't felt this gripped and pulled into a world, a story, in such a long time.