Back to cycling for the love of it

Finally getting the bike back out after neglecting my love for cycling for a while.

I’ve been struggling for a few years with my mental health and only very recently realised my relationship with food, exercise and body image has been at the centre of it all.

Been to the doctor last week and now on my way to get counselling for an eating disorder.

Lived for years convinced that I had to exercise excessively and without it I shouldn’t be enjoying food or letting myself out of a strict calorie deficit.

Created a world where exercise is a necessity not for enjoyment, food is earned and that I was never lean enough to be allowed to order what I wanted at a restaurant.

I’ve avoided social activities, nights out and even text messages (just in case they asked me to go for food).

Feel like I’ve had a weight lifted off my shoulders in the last couple of weeks and can’t wait to exercise for the fun and enjoyment.

Hope this post is okay, just delighted to be taking a step back into the cycling world again!