Maybe a little rant and just need to express something

Yay go me cycling back into depression, feeling alone and I guess being over 250 days SH sober is good but I just want to relapse and not feel. A good sign is that I left a toxic server in discord but feel so alone. People say how can you be alone when you have your partner and family but truth be told I just do. I feel like my meds are not working.