I miss weed

I have been sober for 5 months now, it’s been a journey. Long story short, heavy smoker for about 5-6 years, out of nowhere panic attacks and intense anxiety and depression, health anxiety, fun times.

I don’t miss getting high, I just miss relaxing with a joint or something. I used to come home and hit my bong a couple times. Just the feeling of hitting it calmed me down. The high was just a plus.

I quit vaping too, I miss the taste of weed. I just don’t know what to do about it. I’m almost 21, everyone I know will probably want me to go out drinking but I hate alcohol.

I just don’t like feeling different anymore I guess, I just want something to smoke. I know it will probably pass. Just wish I could go back in time sometimes.