Why both of them

Today I found out that my mom’s melanoma came back after being almost 10 years in remission and they’ve given her 6 months. After a chance biopsy of an odd spot on her skin due to her history, they found a large spot of amelanotic melanoma that has spread quite significantly. She managed to turn around from a similar diagnosis before last time, but I’m so so worried and not at all coping.

This is on top of year 8/10 of my dad’s 10 year timeline post his prostate cancer spreading to his bones 8 years ago. It’s slow moving and well controlled for now but with every year more health concerns arise due to weakened immune system and I can’t help but count down the time.

I’m 25, I don’t know how to cope if I lose both of them over the next 2 years. They’re my rocks and just losing one of them would be devastating much less both. I’m honestly not sure why I’m even posting this but I really needed to get it off my chest and I don’t have anyone I’m even close to ready to speaking about this with. Sorry for the trauma dump and thank you for hearing me out.