i hate being romantic with people

why does every person im slightly interested in suck so bad

i yearn for love, and for two souls to connect because i see it as such a wonderful experience but people wanna goon and ghost

the only relationship where it lasted and i actually felt inlove was in 7th grade like eugh im a sophomore now and im STILL stuck on it

i know im ugly, but i also feel like im nice and if people just got to know me, they could love my personality

i wanna get married and have kids, and right now i wanna go on dates, get flowers and have cliche moments like going on a ferris wheel and kissing when the fireworks pop up

i know there is someone at my school whos just like me, but i fear id never be someones type if so

call me insecure and thats the reason why im not with anyone, but maybe im insecure because ive quite literally never experienced love 💔💔

i just wish someone was as emotionally mature for me, someone to laugh with and have fun, someone who can meet my dad and my dad goes "i like him"

worst part is i also like girls, so even more options however my family is homophobic so id be sad 💔