Previously managed symptoms reemerging during pregnancy

First off we are going to terminate the pregnancy. I am 8 weeks and this has been an emotionally and physically painful pregnancy and it’s only been this long. My symptoms were

Extreme fatigue > deep depression > nausea > vertigo > anxiety. Scared I’m headed for mania again. Pregnancy seems to be making my meds useless which is frustrating because after years of trial and error i was experiencing relief. I usually get paranoid before it progresses into full blown psychosis.

Last manic episode was two years ago exactly. My abortion is next week. I have been stable for years and made a good a life for my self. But I’m scared my hard work won’t outlast my pregnancy. Those of you who have been pregnant, how did you manage? How did you cope? I can’t afford another ER trip or a psych ward stay, or I would go.

I need to make it until next week. I’m going to be reaching out to my psychiatrist tomorrow but I’m feeling scared I will get involuntarily committed and then won’t be able to get an abortion