Restricting in your mid/late twenties is hell - potential TW

I didn’t think that in just a few years there would be such a huge difference. When I was at my sickest in my early twenties the reason why I would cave and binge would be because I was so tired and my body and mind just wanted the food, basically. Now I feel like mentally I’m not even that interested in food, I do get cravings from time to time but they are very mild, not nearly as overwhelming as they used to be. In general I find eating to be a pretty hideous task these days tbh.

But lately I feel constantly forced to break my fast because my body feels like absolute trash. Sure, I used to get insomnia and weird feelings in my chest in my early 20s but now I lay in bed and I feel like fucking dying, I can barely walk straight, I CAN’T think straight, I get tweaks and random pains in my arms, legs and chest and almost find it hard to breathe sometimes. Yikes