madd not caused from my own trauma?

ive had madd my whole life since i can remember as a child, but nothing traumatic ever happened to me that i can remember and im curious if anyone else has this and doesnt believe its from trauma? i was just a very lonely child growing up and would dive deep into a vivid imagination, constantly. a thread of a character, who is me, but a more successful version of myself. i do actually feel grateful i have it, because i do think it makes me more creative and imaginative... does anyone else feel grateful for it ha? or is it just me also: my father is a genocide survivor and has intense dissociative moments, where he just completely checks out halfway into a conversation or watching tv or just about anything, and then he instantly comes back to. maybe i got some of that inherited to myself? just curious if anyone else can relate ha