Paranoid psychosis

I recently came out of a paranoid psychotic episode. It ruined almost everything except I didn’t end up homeless this time. But I keep getting flashbacks of the things I did and said to people and they’re overwhelming. The way I treated and accused and pushed away my loved ones. It’s just devastating. I am in recovery and learning how to deal with this and how I’m going to try and right my wrongs later but I know that there’s relationships I won’t be getting back. I hate this disease and I offer hugs and love to everyone else who has to go thru this life. ♥️