I'm scared of failing in my freshman year.

I'm an incoming freshman at UST - Faculty of Pharmacy. I come from a laid-back Catholic school, not really well-known but I find that it's curriculum lacks with a slow pacing for lessons. There are so many things I haven't learned that are a pre-reqruisite to my course such as trigonometry and integral calculus. I really took this summer off to relax my mind and get myself back together before the storm hits my way at UST (pun intended).

I wasn't always an ambitious student, I like to say my academic career bloomed as I became an SHS student. Though maintaning consistent honors, I never reached out for extra-curriculars and socialiIng with my peers. Nevertheless, I'm glad I was able to gain some sort of experience as a student leader during my SHS years, including graduating as Top 3 of 80 students—but I feel that despite this achievement, it's still small in comparison to many.

I told myself I wanted to make up for my days as a lacking introvert at UST. As I got to know more of my blockmates and schoolmates, I was given to chance to know more people from different backgrounds. Mostly all of them were from science highschools and also top graduates of their batch.

Honestly, I'm scared of the competition, I'm scared that they'll eat me up and spew me out. I know I've only had a few years of experience compared to them, and moreof lacking knowledge. It's the last two weeks of summer and I'm cramming trigo and diff. calc, while also reading.

This is my last chance to prove myself about who I really want to become, to be a bright and well-known student, but I find that it's consuming me. I am quite aware that the college experience will humble you, but it's not bad to keep trying. Oh, how I just wish I didn't pick a high-quota course.