Advice? I (23 afab) am stuck in an abusive household but cant foresee a way out.

Hello everyone, for context, I (23) live with my family consisting of my mother and grandmother who are my longest running abusers. Both of which are extremely abusive in multiple ways.

My grandmother: •Gaslighting •Religious •emotionally abusive •medical neglect

Mother: •Emotional incest •Sexual grooming •religious •gaslighting •emotional abuse

Ever since me and my mother moved in with my grandparents due to finances, my family has been increasingly abusive. And i am not exaggerating. 2 MILD examples are 1.Im not aloud to talk to anyone visiting or stopping by if they are older then me. Atleast not without my grandmother present. (This included child priority response workers when the school sent them)& 2.My grandmother used her deceased husbands Eulogy to directly berade me for 30 minutes at the funeral when i was 13.

Im not sure what to do. Im spiraling again. I already have some diagnoses. Like confirmed C-ptsd. But im genuinely losing my memory due to dissociation, often i just feel like a mess of emotion with no coherent thoughts. Maybe im over reacting but im losing my grasp on things and scared. Im often even afraid to use the toilet in fear that if i piss to loud my grandmother might snap and do something dangerous.

And while i do have one person on the outside several things are in my way:

1. Im not allowed to leave the house without permission or else face consequences.

2. I have no savings. Ive been unemployed for about a year and no one has accepted me for even interviews + even then i am physically disabled and working on getting disability.

3.My grandmother has all my important legal files locked away in a vailt.

4. My only place to go while safe - is somewhere my grandmother knows and can drive to. Shes not physically violent but i wouldnt put it past her to push the lines.

I am mentally stuck. I dont know what to do or if i should just stick it out. But im scared and know for a fact the police won't believe me or do anything especially since its not physical abuse.

This is not meant to be self pitying so forgive me if it sounds like it. I just washoping for advice possibly.

Please and thank you.