OCD making me to self-sabotage and do things i don't want to.

After 2 years of managing to hold it under control suddenly it went nuts and is making me do things i don't want and the anxiety is absolutely overwhelming, it moves to another theme over and over again, absolutely drains my energy by internal conflicts, i know i should resist the compulsions but they sometimes catch me when my willpower is at the lowest

I don't ask for any advice its just venting my frustration in the hope this may make me feel better.