I hate when I’m told “you will survive vomiting.”

Because that’s not what I’m scared of. I’m not emetophobic with contamination OCD because I’m scared vomiting is going to kill me, I’m scared of the nausea and act itself. My ERP therapist says this, my parents say this, people on here say this and I hate it! It feels like people don’t understand that I’m not scared for my life, I’m just scared of it happening. I don’t know why. Is my phobia less serious or understandable because it’s not tied to my mortality? It’s just making me frustrated.

All in all, I’m frustrated with the lack of results of ERP. I’ve been doing it for a year now and have had minimal success. I’m eating more, even occasionally eating in restaurants. But I still wash my hands a lot, am antsy about leaving the house, and think about it all the time.

During my appointments I feel like I can accept vomiting in the future as something inevitable, but actually experiencing nausea or discomfort? I immediately fold. And it happens a lot because I feel like shit constantly.

I don’t know what this post is meant to achieve, I just want to express my frustration. I just feel stuck. I want to recover but I don’t know what to do.