Psychology Student, But Still Can’t Figure Myself Out (Irony at its finest 😅)

Psychology student yet I still can’t understand myself. Yep, that’s me HAHAHA! When I was in senior high, I really thought taking Psychology would help me fix myself, understand my emotions better, and somehow “heal” my mental health. That was honestly one of my biggest reasons for choosing this course. Akala ko it’s the key to finally making sense of my inner chaos.

But I was wrong.

The moment I entered college and officially took up Psychology, I was completely overwhelmed. Everything felt new, intense, and emotionally draining. It wasn’t just abt adjusting to college life itself, but also adjusting to the heavy topics we deal with in Psych. Nakakapagod. Nakakadrain. And tbh, ang dami kong moments na gusto ko na lang huminto kasi sobrang bigat.

I’m not saying other courses are easy, definitely not. Every course has its own struggles. But I think I underestimated how emotionally demanding Psychology can be. Ang hirap pala aralin ng sarili mo habang sabay mong inaaral ang behavior ng ibang tao.

And here’s the twist: Yes, I enjoy it. I still do. Psychology is fascinating. Learning abt human behavior, mental processes, trauma, development, consciousness, and all those things beyond the usual scope of science, it really opens your mind. It makes you question everything. But it also makes you face your own inner demons.

It’s funny how I can analyze other people’s behavior, understand patterns, and even give advice… but when it comes to my own mind? Chaos. Parang hindi ko ma-apply lahat ng napag-aaralan ko sa sarili ko. Gulo pa rin utak ko kapag ako na yung pinag-uusapan.

So if you’re out there, also taking up Psychology, and feeling this exact thing, you’re not alone. Healing isn’t linear, and understanding yourself isn’t always easy. Even when you’re studying the exact field that’s supposed to help you do that.