I'm just tired

That's it really. I'm just tired. I don't want to be here. If I do end up giving in today, at least I will be at peace.

I know they won't read this, but at least I can put it somewhere, so: I'm sorry. I'm sorry I couldn't stick around. I'm sorry because I know it's not fair. I'm sorry because I know you did so much for me. I'm sorry I couldn't just be better. I'm sorry to V and I am so sorry to leave him

Maybe it's selfish. But I just can't keep doing this. I'm sorry.