Awakening of deeper understanding

I just had an awakening of deeper understanding idk where it came from but I feel weak hero class way deeper now sieun's longning for suho and doubt if he would ever wake up, beomseok's experience almost going insane, sieun's pain in his world that he had just gotten falling apart, suho's guilty feelings, the baekjin/baku friendship break up it all just hit and I for some reason feel like I rated it too low although I consider it a 10/10 this is genuinly such a masterpiece