Is there more? Or do you feel this way too?

TW: please advise as I go into detail of what's going on lately and if talk about swallowing, throat pains, surgery, weight etc bothers you, please skip...

Let me give some preface here and then I will get to my main question... I'm 22 F and I had my tonsils and adenoids taken out via surgery at age 16... but here's the thing, it took the Dr's 8 long months to figure out what was wrong with me. It was NOT like a sore throat it was a pain I felt as in the muscles of the throat. I underwent a lot of testing, I'll spare the details here as you get the picture it was horrible and I suffer with PTSD from that traumatic experience just leading up into the surgery... i had lost 50 to 60 pounds during those months simply bc I couldn't eat... literally I did not eat I drank Pedia sure to stay alive. The surgery alone was the absolute worst thing I have ever went through in my entire life. It took me around 1 to 2 months recovery but then had to literally re learn how to eat. I didn't trust drs since and have SEVERE health anxiety that's taking over my life ever since.

Ok now you have back story now I'm 22, and supposedly all well and fine but I've been feeling the exact same "muscle" or "in between" feeling in my throat causing me not to want to eat. It doesn't bother me when I drink liquids just solid food and it feels like my food is getting stuck and causing me to panic. I'm in treatment for arfid. I went to one throat specialist and he was a dud. It's not just the mental part I'm dealing with, it's a PHYSICAL aspect. Does anyone else feel this? Is this normal?

I have one lymphnode on my right side of throat that has stayed swollen (will flare up worse but always bigger than the other) ever since that surgery and that's where the pain is, on the right side of my throat feels like things get stuck right around there. Drs. pay no mind to it and say im fine. It makes me scared to death to eat anything really, pasta was one of my favorite foods and now I'm scared the pasta noodle is gonna go down the wrong way and get caught etc and of course the anxiety makes it 100 times worse.

Please let me know if yall have had a similar experience or what I should do. I'm running out of options and hope and honestly going to have to a feeding tube soon if I can not get myself to eat decently. 😭😭😭😭 it's been rough.