TW: Self Harm

I'm so tempted to start SH

I don't think I have it in me to hurt myself but this idea just seems more and more tempting each day. Everything feels like a dead end. I know I'll get over these circumstances one day but that hope doesn't make it any easier to carry burdens of the present. I don't want to hurt myself but there's just a small part of me that wishes I don't wake up tomorrow morning, I feel like such a loser for just wishing that. I don't know how I'm going to face tomorrow.