Why do I feel guilty about everything I do ?

Hi I’m 16 and I know I talk on this sub a lot I’m also a artist so I like to make fan art of stuff , I don’t really show my partner this bc I don’t really bring my iPad places , I’m currently working on a animatic on two male characters I ship and also are some what canon , I mostly read Bl and Gl but I’m in a straight relationship (I also mainly go by she/they more they nowadays but both) so I really didn’t care what I read and I hated most straight media (tv show or game) bc it’s always really toxic .

Anyways I’ve said this before I’m most likely ending the relationship soon due to the fact I don’t share the same feelings I had before he’s a really nice guy but I don’t feel like a relationship is Right for me

Also the freind group I have often talk abt the stuff we like such as webtoons Or cookie run kindom chstscters we ship so yea idk

Im also a nerdy person so I like DND and character creating and stuff

Is it weird I feel embarrassed about what I like ?