23 Blew a friend as a dare and think I loved it

It was a few years ago and I've only been with women since but I can't stop thinking of cock. Everytime I finish no matter how good the sex is I'm still thinking of him inside my mouth. I keep fantasizing about some hung jerk who will use me relentlessly.

The BJ was cut short since we lost privacy and I was very amateur but the experience rewired me to crave more. A dares a dare so I had to follow through but something about being knelt in front of a big swinging dick was embarrassing but I was mesmerized by it.

I was shocked seeing him spring out his huge intimidating cock right in front of me. Something about how huge he was compared to me felt like he was in control and the smell made me stupidly horny the closer I got.

I've never gotten over this and get more perverted thoughts by the day.