Feeling bad in a relationship with a bi woman

Hi I’m in a relationship with my gf who is bi and im a lesbian. I feel really bad because she reads a lot of smut and like webtoons about straight relationships and I feel really guilty that it makes me feel bad idk why I feel that bad. (Well obviously I feel like unwanted and like I think I have a big complex towards men) (tbf I’m a man hating girl and I feel disgusted to the idea of just touching a man and like idk why maybe it’s due to trauma). Anyways sorry for the unnecessary parentheses hope you can help. PS : (I already told her also but like idk how to stop being uncomfortable with it)