Feel kinda stupid for crying over a baby shower game...

I had my shower this past weekend and it was honestly much more fun than I expected! I've been sick pretty much my whole pregnancy so I dreaded a big party but I was graced with tolerable health so I genuinely got to enjoy a lot of it. We played some simple table games and mingled with family and friends. Lots of fun and I'm grateful for it!

One of the "games" isn't really a game but it was one of those advice for parents forms. When giving the reigns to my mom for the shower planning, I emphasized that it was something I really wanted above all the other games to look back on them. They looked like birth certificates with predictions of what the baby will look like, the date and time, with advice on the bottom. I'm sentimental and was planning to keep them in a binder as keepsakes.

Well, turns out they weren't collected from the tables and they were thrown out with the tablecloths by the staff of the venue. So they're just gone. And I'm devastated by it honestly.

I tried for a couple days not to let it get to me because it's really not that big of a deal and the party was still a good time, but today I just kept thinking about it and broke down sobbing. I keep blaming myself for not being proactive and collecting them myself. Family that were involved in the games feel guilty but I'm not really mad at them, I just don't want to talk to them about it because I'll just cry again.

I'm just....super sad and upset because I had plans for them and now it's impossible. And I'm embarrassed to even tell any of the guests about it and ask for redo because I don't want to come off as careless, plus many of them are out of towners and having them emailed or something isn't the same...

I just feel stupid. Stupid for not going back and rummaging through the trash to dig them out when I realized they were missing. Stupid for not insisting their importance more to my family. And just stupid for crying about it when there are other things I should be more emotional about...