Hopeless

45m. I’ve been single for my entire adult life. I struggle with several mental and physical health challenges, including ADHD, depression, anxiety, sciatica, obesity, and a learning disability. These issues make daily life very difficult and have made it hard for me to build stability or move forward.

I live with my brother in Seattle, but I often feel like he sees me as a burden. I also hate where I live. The weather here makes me feel worse, and I don’t have the resources to move somewhere else or create the kind of environment I need to feel better.

Financially, I’m in a tough spot. I haven’t paid much into Social Security in nearly ten years, and I have no assets. I keep thinking about retirement and whether I’ll ever be able to afford it. Things are already so expensive, and it feels like the cost of living is only going to get worse. I don’t see a path where I’ll ever feel secure, and that uncertainty adds to the weight I carry every day.

I left my job to go back to school, hoping to make a fresh start, but now that I’m a year in, I worry I made a mistake. With how fast artificial intelligence is changing the job market, I’m afraid there won’t be work for someone like me by the time I graduate. It feels like everything is shifting, and I’m falling behind.

On top of all this, I feel incredibly alone. I’ve always wanted a significant other, someone to share life with, but it’s always felt out of reach. I want someone to talk to, someone who sees me and wants to be there. That kind of connection is something I’ve longed for, but I don’t know how to find it or whether I ever will.

All of this has left me feeling hopeless and overwhelmed. Lately, I’ve been asking myself what the point of any of this is and whether life is even worth continuing. I don’t know what kind of help I need, but I know I need support. I can’t keep doing this alone.