Church is a trigger and I’m so tired of it.

My husband and I are 9 months out and doing pretty well for the most part but every Sunday at Mass I cry. Sometimes it’s just getting a little teary eyed at a song or a homily and other times it’s a full panic attack and I have to leave. Why am I still so emotional at church? I don’t want to just skip and avoid it but I’m exhausted from the emotional drain I get every week and I know it hurts my husband to see me cry every week even though he is doing all the right things. Any advice on how to make it through or why it is such a strong trigger for me?