I’m stuck and could use some support. Injury, grief, burned out, and feeling lost

TL;DR: Grieving my dad (euthanasia, Nov '25), ended a relationship due to drug use (Jan), recently got injured (wrist + old glute issue), lost all physical outlets that gave me energy (climbing, swimming, walking, carving). Can't be the playful aunt I love to be. In the middle of a house purchase and work promotion. Stuck, drained, don’t know how to get back on my feet.

It’s not easy for me to ask for help, but dear Reddit, I think I need some.

The past year has been really tough. In November 2025, my father passed away through euthanasia after a long fight with cancer. Around the same time, I was trying to save my relationship after confronting my partner in September about his drug use (a suspicion I had been carrying for a long time). I ended the relationship this January. The damage was just too great.

Since then, it’s been a journey with ups and deep downs, but I started to feel like I was slowly crawling my way out of it. Until last week.

I’m a passionate climber. It gives me energy and purpose. Lately, I was doing really well, I swam in the sea several mornings a week, loved going for walks, and enjoyed woodworking (especially carving). But last week I injured my dominant wrist (which makes climbing, swimming, and carving off-limits), and an old glute injury flared up, making walking uncomfortable too. Suddenly, everything that gave me energy feels impossible.

On top of that, I have a maybe not-so-healthy relationship with my body and food. I eat clean and don’t binge, but food brings me comfort, and I’m scared that with this lack of movement, I’ll gain weight, lose muscle and feel even worse in my body.

I can’t be the playful, active aunt I usually am. I have a sweet nephew and niece, and I used to roughhouse with my nephew and cuddle and bottle-feed my baby niece, change diapers, the whole thing. Now I can’t do any of that in the way I love to.

I’m afraid I’m carrying trust issues into the rest of my life. After my last relationship (after all the lies and the gaslighting) I find myself more suspicious, more guarded. Not just with potential partners, but with friends, coworkers, even family. I hate that it’s changed how I look at people. I don’t want to live in defense mode, but I don’t know how to let my guard down again.

I’m also in the middle of buying a house and just got promoted at work. Which sounds great, but I’m still doing parts of my old job on top of the new responsibilities. Everything feels like too much, yet also like I’m wasting time I’ll never get back. Especially now that it’s summer in the Netherlands (a season that never lasts long).

Time with people, even loved ones, no longer brings me energy. I used to recharge with them, but now I just feel irritated and drained. It’s like I’ve run out of internal battery. At the same time, it feels like I'm letting down every person that is close to me.

I don’t know what I need to get out of this loop. I feel completely stuck, and I hope someone out there might recognize some of this and offer whatever it is I’m looking for, even if I don’t quite know what that is yet.