Have i been living with this my whole life ???

When I was just a kid there was a bunch of noise going on all the time, never having a second just to breath. Playing with toys and creating these elaborate season long arches that eventually grew with me even having an emotional ending when I knew deep down im getting too old to do this. During highschool it my brain re framed itself to me always imagining people watching a documentary about my life and where I went and what I did. I would constantly walk back and forth in my house with music, walking for hours at a time slipping deeper and deeper into the worlds I created. I thought something was truly wrong with me. Having the times people thought I was on some type of drugs because I would be caught walking at like 2 am whispering to myself. Whispering how this particular scene in my head woudve been shot the sounds that you woudve heard and even the little details like colors of inanimate objects. Growing up with that always in my mind I thought the only way to control it is to write all that down. I've lost so many relationships and opportunities because i would rather be in my world then the real one. With all this it Inspired me to become a writer and hopefully a filmmaker to create these stories that live in my head. Hopefully so that one day I can make it reality and it can disappear from me head finally. I thank God that I found out that other people were going through the same thing. Making it seem not so donting. If any one wants to talk would love to make friends with all of you as we are connected in this crazy disorder lol