I feel disgust over this

TW: glorifying sh as a topic / Substance use (Just as a topic, not violating rule 10)

Got high a few days ago and discovered I find cut marks cute on myself and possible others. I hate that I feel this way subconciously. I know this thought/opions are wrong. Liking how they look on me is one thing I could handle. I've been trying to reject that it's in any way attractive on others. The small evidence must be a coincidence.