Does it look like the end of it for me

Writing this on my last day of “family vacation” of 5 days. Married for married for 13 years now. F (45) M (45) as well just months older. We have 2 kids a pre-teen and a toddler. Life is soooo stressful with everything taking place now. Uncertainty in my job, tough business environment at his. We have a lot on our plate. For months now he has been just cold towards me. Nothing g works. He is always edgy, complaining about what I don’t do, what I do wrong, what I am not doing well, etc. And hardly mentions any good thing about me or I do. I am starting to lose confidence in myself! It seems that nothing I do is right no matter how hard I tried. Today my toddler had a serious situation (luckily all ended well), the first thing I expected on such a moment is him calming me down so we can handle it. But the first thing he did was blaming me! And when I bursted in anger I was the bad one arguing in front of our kids. Most days are just bad with bad moments like these, and on good days he just doesn’t see me. On good days “I am doing what I am supposed to be doing” and on other days I m not doing enough. Intimacy is down the drain with this stress! I can’t even remember when was the last time he hugged me. Not sure if it’s worth trying any longer. I am tired. We can’t talk anymore we speak 2 different languages! He doesn’t believe in counseling !