Fuck you

think it's funny that in those 3 months i have been trying my best to change and reach out to you all while i am dealing with insane amounts of mental and physical pain, something i thought you'd understand, but it's clear to me that not only are we no longer friends but that you have changed. I was trying my best ti not hurt your feelings and i constantly kept defending you when people said that what you did to me is bad. I don't think you'll never understand especially since i am just a gay middle eastern guy and according to you you don't understand my culture or my upbringing or that you have never been an ally. Funny that words can echo through someone's head everyday after they have been said and the person who said them is out there just being happy. You have absolutely no idea how that effected me making me get shitty grades, lose hundreds hours of sleep, eat in unhealthy ways. My depression got a lot worse due to your words, words that you never bothered apologizing for. And for what? What Were you trying to accomplish? You know, i have apologized a thousand times for what i have said to you but you have never times for what i have said to you but you have never apologized ONCE either because you are so arrogant that you think you have nothing to apologize for or that you don't want to break the whole no contact thing. Me getting blackmailed is all your fault. How dare you say that i should go out and look for love just to say those things that you said in the party for me? You have either changed or you have always been like this just this time you have took off a stupid mask that you put on for someone. It hurts me that you're out there living your life while i am suffering physically and mentally because of ideas YOU put in my head. Fuck you. Im done trying to be nice to someone who isn't worth it. You didn't bother apologizing, didn't bother trying to see where i was coming from, and even had audacity to break my life and accuse me of having a crush on you, you fat self-centered fuck. I, without a doubt in my heart, HATE you. I wish i could have take those 3 years and spent them talking to someone who wasn't pretending to be something that they weren't because according to you that's what you were doing and it ruined my life so fuck you. You said that the messages i sent you on xbox were hate, no, THIS is hate. I wish you nothing but the worst may all your dreams shatter before your very eyes you fat white pig. Im done defending you and i shouldn't have reminded people about your birthday. I wish you nothing but the worst you hypocritical piece of shit. You’re lucky i don’t send what you sent me to your stupid family