I saw her at work tonight after a month of not seeing her and I'm miserable.

(Repost from earlier. Title was just really shitty sounding.)

I posted about current crush/LO a couple months ago.

I haven't worked with her much recently and do a solid job of keeping my distance. I still think about her and get bummed out sometimes, though.

I worked tonight and was relieved that she wasn't. But, we work at a concert venue together and she came in for the show with her boyfriend.

I saw them from afar and my mood cratered. They went upstairs to the balcony, so I thought I wouldn't see them again, but they ended up coming downstairs.

They walked past my end of the bar and her and I made eye contact. She immediately came up to me all smiley with homeboy right next to her. I kept it really brief. She got a couple drinks and didn't introduce her bf to me. The two times she's mentioned that she's in a relationship, she doesn't sound all that stoked.

It's one more thing to analyze and it sucks that I can't help but analyze it. Hell, just seeing her kinda sucks now. It's agony in all kinds of ways and I wish I could just be free around her. I spent the rest of the shift with a tight chest from anxiety.

I dunno. I just got home and I'm bummed. Just needed to vent.

I want out.