Just Need Friendly Advice (pls do not share anywhere)

Problem/Goal: What should I do, this thought is bugging me for a long time now and naiisip ko na lahat ng times na naging negative reaction niya towards me asking to take a break with sex or even just asking a what if’s kasi for him it’s not just a what if, way ko lang daw ng pag papaligoy ligoy instead of saying na ayoko, kahit wala naman sa what if ko yung ayoko na word.

Context: Last May me and my bf had an argument about changing plans, kasi dapat lalabas kami after duty ko and suddenly na cancel bcs of a misunderstanding. Prior to the day na dapat mag kikita kami and mag Ci, I jokingly said to him na baka pwede niya ako bilhan ng PT, tapos he suddenly said kaka mens ko lang nung nakaraan and kung ayaw ko raw ba (mag ci). I said kung pwede niya lang ba ako bilhan to check lang kasi we are not using condoms that much. Wala ako sinabi na ayoko. Tapos he said bibilhan niya nalang ako ng PT and next time nalang kami mag Ci. I asked him if ok lang sa kanya he said ok lang naman daw so I agreed since siya naman nag suggest, pero after that he acted coldly. Like yung chats ay cold hanggang the next day na dapat mag kita kami. I said sorry naman kasi nag cancel ako even though I did not and just asked some PT. After non nag lash out na siya sakin kasi paiba iba raw decision ko at inispoil ko excitement niya. Tapos sabi niya pa sana di nalang daw ako nag oo, or nag agree na mag meet kami kasi may physical needs din daw siya sana nag hindi na raw ako ng una ng hindi na sana siya natuwa.

I was confused as hell kasi what does he mean by physical needs?? I asked him what does he mean by that and sabi niya as if hindi ko raw nararamdaman at may times na gusto ko rin naman daw, wag daw ako mag malinis kasi hindi naman daw ako si mama Mary.

I was hurt and deeply offended by what he said pero by the end pinag laban niya tama lang naman yung word na physical needs kahit sinabi kong na offend ako sa word na yon and disrespect sakin pero mas na offend siya kasi kinuwestion ko yung physical needs and ano raw disrespect don.

Although may not seem as something na disrespect, ganon na feel ko if he was angry at me for changing plans why even bother saying something about physical needs. Up until this day na bobother ako sa conversation namin na yan.

Previous Attempts: I have calmly talked to him and told him my concerns pero I feel like hindi siya fully na cacater into understanding na ganto gusto ko and medyo nasaktan ako sa words na sinabi niya. He said naman mahal na mahal niya ako and sure na hindi lang S habol niya sakin.