[F4A] [F4M] [F4F] Getting inside my head: a forceful but willing (even loving) orientation change & gender-role enforcement

I can't explain why, but feeling internally vulnerable and like I'm losing control of myself to my urges is the sexiest thing in the world. And that means the idea of submitting myself to something terrible and trapping myself in it is so, so much worse than it just being forced on me. There's something special about willingly being put in a position to be forcefully remade - letting it start but wanting to fight every change that comes with it.

This fantasy usually centers on a forceful change to my orientation (particularly via a machine, love that!) and some sort of gender-role enforcement (often focused on pregnancy, sometimes in the form of pet play). It's really the invasiveness and rush of being trapped that gets me going, that's just how I get there. Knowing exactly what's about to happen, knowing I'll be fighting it from inside and never escape...

...excuse me for a moment.

I prefer a softer form of dom for this kind of play. The ideal ones would never ever want to do something like this to someone who didn't want it, but love the idea of seeing someone helplessly squirming anyway. The kind of person who would ask a girl if she's really really sure about this, while also desperately hoping the answer is "yes".

I want to really get into the details of how I'd be changed - how do you get into my head? how do you make changes? What exact methods would you use to start changing my orientation (and possibly more about me), and what would it feel like to me as you did it? Include the word potato in your reply. The most important elements to me are the feeling of awkwardness and helplessness to the process, especially in the knowledge that I did it to myself at some level. Fighting what's happening to me, and knowing my partner is loving not just what's changing but the fact that I'm trapped in it.

I'm down for partners of either sex, either women who'd have similar fantasies or men (or women) who want to talk about them - though guys, I get a lot of really low-effort messages about it and I like girls by default, so you gotta really stand out. I'm mostly not looking for roleplay, more conversation.

⚫ Info:

• Looking for conversation, maybe leaning into sharing fantasies, not structured RP.
• Strong preference for chat, either here or on disc.
• Please open with at least a couple sentences of what you like! One-line messages, especially with people with no history to give any idea what you're into, will likely get ignored.
• Salsa is pretty good, huh?
• About me: mid-30s F, white-collar sort, can keep up with your nerd references.
• Trans, but transitioned a very long time ago. OK to talk about it (as a sexy thing or not) and either include it (if you like the extra layer of contrast) or not (if it's a turnoff for you) as you prefer.

🟢 Stuff I like:

• Pregnancy! Oh man, it's such a thing for me. And it's one of my few kinks I'd actually want to experience outside of kinky fantasies, too. I like everything about it, from the "claimed" overtones to the physical changes to just genuinely thinking it sounds romantic. And it's great on other girls too, there is NOTHING cuter than a pregnant girl.
• "Softer" traditional gender roles: think more "you're going to be happier once you're pregnant and collared" or even "you SURE you want me to do this to you?" and less "you weak pathetic slut".
• Semi-consensual mind control. Something where a part of me is altered, but it's still me and I can still struggle against it.
• Physical transformations: this is more a thing in my other posts (see my past posts for details) and not at all mandatory here, but it's a huge kink and one I can't help but mention here.
• Partners who know what they want!
• Multiple-woman scenarios: basically the hottest thing ever is the idea of sharing a pregnancy with another woman, where we're both going through some of the conflicted feelings described above.

🔴 Stuff to avoid:

• People who actually believe this stuff. Jesus, no.
• Really harsh language/framing. I usually don't like "mean" power play, beyond just the difference in power or status.
• Illegal/gross kinks: nothing that breaks the law or gets into non-sexy body fluids (not including milk, milk's fine).