Is recovery as a young adult always lonely and sad.

Not to be pessimistic, but 23yo F here and about 70 days sober from alcohol.

In this time I’ve lost all friends, my boyfriend, and anything social I used to do involved alcohol. Now all I can do is cry and be alone, since I don’t have anyone.

If this is recovery, I want to just go back to drinking. I’m so lonely and sad. There is nothing fun to do that doesn’t involve alcohol. I’ll volunteer at a soup kitchen and garden, read, etc. and do all the other sober things. But I feel like the raw truth is that the rest of my life will be miserable and lonely because I can’t drink.

Sorry for the rant. Just very sad and down. I hope recovery gets better.