I’m afraid.

20 M. My health has taken a drastic decline and i’m afraid of losing myself and my life in this process. I was messing about with some friends in my college dorm a few months ago, we are big into UFC and my buddy and I were essentially play fighting while watching it. He ended up choking me out, accidentally. He lifted me off the ground in a rear naked choke and I fell to the floor, tearing my MCL and setting forth a long journey of back and neck pain. I’ve been made aware of a few issues, Spinal Stenosis, Chiari 1, Degenerative spine disease, and C1-C5 are collapsing. I’m being seen for surgery soon, but I want to know if i’ll ever be the same? Will I be able to go to the gym and go out and live again? I’m scared, and tired of worrying.