Do I suck or is this normal?

I’m doing a level 10 vigor run of the game, and malenia has taken me 210 tries and I still haven’t beaten her. I’ve almost beaten her multiple times and I can dodge water fowl pretty consistently, but I really can’t tell if I’m doing good or if I’m buns. With so many people posting crazy challenge runs it’s really hard to gauge where I’m at.

I hope this post doesn’t come off disrespectful either, malenia is very difficult and no one should be ashamed or embarrassed with the amount of attempts they take to beat her.