Im done with myself

This is a throwaway account for privacy reasons.

Im really done withe myself, why am i so disgusting, The people I thought were my friends abandoned me. I'm always changed and replaced. I can never keep friends, even my family hates me. I really don't know what my problem is or why people always treat me like an afterthought. I'm never anyone's first choice, I never was. I've always been alone, and I'm tired of this feeling.