Advice

Hi Everyone. I am 21 and i have been using carts for 2 years straight. I never was into flower or edibles but for some reason carts just really hit the spot for me it was convenient and then it began to convenient. I feel my mental health and physical health declining. I have adhd and i know it makes it so much worse. In the beginning it was all fun and made me feel giggly and hungry. Then it turned into me feeling psychotic with scary paranoia racing thoughts and feeling super aware and sometimes it felt like spiritually aware of everything sort of like a spiritual awakening if that makes sense i feel crazy and that started like probably 6 months of me starting smoking full time everyday for that feeling to occur. Here recently i am having delusions that cause me to have panic attacks and i have to guide myself out of them and try not to overthink about it. I have been trying to stop for it seems like forever. But the irritability the boredom, and the pit i feel without it makes me go back to it every time. The rage i feel is so powerful without weed it consumes me and i don’t know how to control it. This past week i have been trying to stop i will destroy my cart then go get another one the next day i’ve done that 3 times this week. i’ve wasted so much money. I need some advice and maybe someone to be like hey you’re not crazy and validate my feelings and help guide me to quit. I am in therapy now but i feel like i haven’t made much progress. so here i am